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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 05:56

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

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And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

It was going to be , some day.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I never cut or harmed myself..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

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Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

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I was scared of men, in general

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I write beautiful poetry .

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

We were not on the streets..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Comes on , in middle age.

Was to survive, this bastard.

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One cannot live in the past .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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So, i spoilt her more .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He resisted the act ,that day.

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Would this be the day?

When she asked me how she looked .

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A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

My life is so biszare .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

But it wasn’t much.

I was 9 years of age.

She was in good health!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

All the time i was locked up.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

(And it was in our own minds.)

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But, we were locked up after school.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I will be 64.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She loved him until the end.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I think the readers, may guess!

I don,t even have a pension.

What did i know ?

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I was very sick at this time too.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I was seconnd youngest,

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

This is soul school!.

Ive learnt so much.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I waited trembling.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

My family never makes their pension either.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

We all went to grammer schools

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Why did i forgive my father ?

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

She married twice! .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I said to her

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

As i do to all so called friends.?

Put me off passion for life!!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

She wouldn,t have been !

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Im still living with it.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

She found it foreign!.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He knew the spot.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Who then, do I blame.?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I have no regrets .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

So whats the point in blame.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

And i lived it daily.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.